You get an inclination. You act on it. You make a decision. Whoosh. Cool. Big weight leaves thought. Freedom returns all but for one thing: the logistics that have to happen in order to allow you the ability to act on this decision….
Obstacle or opportunity?
Stumbling block or arena for proving patience and perserverance?
Well, talk to me last week and I woulda said OBSTACLE!!!! STUMBLING BLOCK!!!! and i woulda added a ton of exasperation as well.
A decision I’ve been putting off I finally committed to. Lock, stock, barrel ready to dive in.
I saw my way through all the necessaries to make the decision actualized except for some of the logisitics.
There’s been a lot of stumbling blocks and seeming obstacles to having those come together.
Concurrent to my own problematic situations, my sister’s taking on a move that’s come together seemlessly except for the cable /internet installation. The company goofed on her order, started service at the new location, cancelled it at the current one and she’s spent upwards of 10+ hours on the phone trying to square it all up.
Sick of that cable company? Yup.
Despising the process of moving? Yup.
As she finagled her way through all the loopholes of the set up and installation of her new service I watched her joy and wonder over new beginnings get zapped by frustration with seeming incompetence and poor follow through.
And I watched how I absorbed that same reacting to my own stumbling blocks.
And I watched how I started sounding like a squawking peacock “nothing’s ever easy. this decision may be a good one but good luck having it unfold harmoniously.” I even watched myself bop myself over the head one time too many blaming myself for procrastinating…had I done this a year ago, things would have been different, blahdeeblah….
So what’s the deal? Do we always have to incur stumbling blocks with right decisions?
As we move forward with what best promotes our growth, are there always gonna be obstacles and mishaps?
Well, what if it’s not the obstacle that is the issue ?
What if the issue is how we respond?
If something is a right decision, why would we ever 2nd guess it or wonder about the timing?
And more, why would we ever fault ourselves or condemn ourselves if it’s not evolving harmoniously?
I’m no expert yet, and often find myself whining and wailing before I hush up long enough to regroup, check out my reacting wallowings, and take a deep breath to remember: at each and every moment, my life and everyone’s, is governed and sustained by Divine Love’s nudge. What typically reacts in disappointment or frustration is the human ego, the pull to be weighed down in self-justification and human will, especially out of a sense of control or power.
You and I do not need to exert power or will. We have only to walk forward and move forward with the conviction that each and every aspect of our lives is ordered and governed, sustained and supplied.
It’s not about controlling the outcome or orchestrating it. It’s about moving forward responding to those inner yearnings and then defending the right steps to shepherd the outcome are ocurring, again, in divine Love’s timing.
So in moments of angst, frustration or impatience, I’m reminded yet again that no barking at a flower made it bloom faster, no shouting at the oven made the cookies cook more rapidly, and no insisting willfully or arrogantly at our own lives will ever make them evolve more readily.
I’m humbled as I remember all is a moment to moment, thought by thought journey.
So if you’ve just made a decision that feels right for you, celebrate it and pause. And let the next days of living with this decision take shape naturally. You don’t have to steer it’s unfoldment or charge full steam ahead and dictate how it has to come together.
Pause and defend. Be still and know. Exude joy and feel loved….moment to moment and thought by thought. Good IS occurring and you are living it wholely and fully.
Enjoy your journey. 🙂
If you wanna touch base about any of these ideas, email me: firstname.lastname@example.org or leave a comment and I’ll be sure to respond asap. 🙂 Be well and much joy to you, Tre ~